A night that I have never experienced before....
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I checked in the hotel room logged on the internet for a while chatted with friends for an hour and then was fast sleep as I had meetings in the morning.
I woke up at 3AM with this strange feeling. I was missing someone out of the blue. A really strange feeling that I felt I should pack my bags head to the airport take the first flight and go and see her. Its like my senses were not in my control. To change a bit I started to sms a few friends in Kuwait thinking someone might reply but I guess it was one of those nights when everyone is sleeping except me. I checked my e-mails on my mobile and didn't realize when I was sleeping again...
I dreamed about her that I was weak and asking her to get back and she's walking away from me. I promised her I will take her away from this hard life like always.. I asked her why did she do this to me after 5 years of loyalty after 5 years of non stop love after 5 years of faith full relation...I don't deserve this!! !! !! I don't need a closure I want you...
I woke up again an hour later. I find my self sleeping on the floor with my mobile in my hand and I was crying in my sleep. I was shocked and scared. I have never seen my self crying in my sleep. I sat on the sofa and gave my self this comfort that everything happens for a good reason and me going to see her wont break a heart made of rock.
I am in the middle of my meeting now and I can't concentrate...the night is like a unforgettable moment for me....
I checked in the hotel room logged on the internet for a while chatted with friends for an hour and then was fast sleep as I had meetings in the morning.
I woke up at 3AM with this strange feeling. I was missing someone out of the blue. A really strange feeling that I felt I should pack my bags head to the airport take the first flight and go and see her. Its like my senses were not in my control. To change a bit I started to sms a few friends in Kuwait thinking someone might reply but I guess it was one of those nights when everyone is sleeping except me. I checked my e-mails on my mobile and didn't realize when I was sleeping again...
I dreamed about her that I was weak and asking her to get back and she's walking away from me. I promised her I will take her away from this hard life like always.. I asked her why did she do this to me after 5 years of loyalty after 5 years of non stop love after 5 years of faith full relation...I don't deserve this!! !! !! I don't need a closure I want you...
I woke up again an hour later. I find my self sleeping on the floor with my mobile in my hand and I was crying in my sleep. I was shocked and scared. I have never seen my self crying in my sleep. I sat on the sofa and gave my self this comfort that everything happens for a good reason and me going to see her wont break a heart made of rock.
I am in the middle of my meeting now and I can't concentrate...the night is like a unforgettable moment for me....
Comments
I saw the sms dude this morning only! I wish I could help.. there come times that we all get too emotional about the past, being strong is the solution.. just hold on
Hey its ok I don't even rem how many ppl I sent the same msg too and it was a very odd time..I am sorry for that :)
ur so brave to expose ur private life as that..
strangment..fear of loss..loneliness..3adi t7osh most of ppl..anyways..if I am wrong skip the note .. :P
spikey: enshallah :)
amethyst: thanks for the hug
desert-roses: thanks for passing by :) well when u go through so much shit in life I guess u become brave,hehe
things will get better inshallah oo u'll find someone better inshalah
Time heals all types of pain. U'll get thru it, and u'll meet someone that will make u so much more happier.
Nice post. Really heartfelt.
its ok that you miss her , and you will never stop thinking ,,,
take care :)
sweet dreams for today ;P
Take care ! You got better things waiting for you ! ...
this lady: enshallah time heals this too
Welcome to my blog :)
outofreach: sweet dreams Amu
grey: thanks :)
i'm impressed that a guy may feel that deep about a girl who just left and made him unhappy .. wala .. bs i hope it works out fine for you oo you find another girl who truly loves you ..
CHILL OUT !
maze: thanks mate :)
pearls: I did wish her that...