Monday, November 26, 2007

The Last Leg

I just arrived LA a few hours back. I have my meetings starting tomorrow morning and I am just not into it. I hate my work now and there is no reason to hate it :? I don't know whats wrong with me!!! I just want to resign and walk out tomorrow. I feel I can do much more without this job. It might be less in benefits that I receive from my present job and more hard work but at the end of the day this is what I wanted from the beginning. I started working before 5 years to accomplish a important thing in my life and now when its not there I want to get back to what I wanted.

I have been thinking in flight all my way to LA and I still cant get the answer why I want to leave my job? I am crazy..its so weird that I know what I am doing might be wrong but I still want to do it!

Another stupid thing in me I just don't feel like coming back to Kuwait. I don't know why?? I miss Kuwait, I miss my car, my Speedo but right now I just want to get away from every thing... I am too scared to come back into the same life that I left before 2 weeks. I had such a good time in NY, DC, Virginia and Maryland. I miss my cousins, they really greeted me so well here in states.

I need to get out of this 4 wall room and see LA and grab a bite before I sleep. Wish me luck for tomorrows day and I hope I make the right decisions.

16 comments:

Stewie said...

you know this feelings i really have right now .. I just feel I can not study anymore! .. on this weekend I spend my time reading a novel which is never related to my studies .. and I got like 2 assignments to finish next week!!

what am going to do today - & I advise you to do so - is to sit alone in the library (the office) - with a lil bit of determination & esti3atha min eblees! - concentrate, start working and bring back the joyment! :D

thanks

Blue Dress said...

Concentrate on the positive sides.

Purplecious said...

i read ur post couple of times and it seems to me that you know the reason why you wana quit ur current job.. U need to change that old routine so that it will help you to avoid the memories of the past 5 years, its not a short period of time but it reached an end now and you have to start over a "new life" with a "new goal"

u have the experience now but u have to put in mind the choices and options that u have b4 resigning so do ur home work ;)

u don't feel like coming back to Kuwait, then don't come back :D Take your time tyt ;)

Amethyst said...

Everything happens for a good reason. Just calm down, think things through, and I'm sure you'll make the right decisions.

Kuwait misses you, too:)

chikapappi said...

I hate mine too bs you need not think of that while you are there you know!

Canc3riaN said...

Awww so you're back to facing reality again haha...

Well... at least think of it this way... you had an amazing break and '3ayyart jaw and you had fun!! :D


You should be feeling fresh and recharged... and full of energy and READY TO FACE WORK...

heheh

Maze said...

dont leave b4 finding a better alternative!

Grey said...

men dont quit! come back !

Speedo said...

stewie: thanks mate :) I just woke up its 5 am. I feel good...

blue dress: I will :)

purplecious: Nooo I have to come back to Kuwait :pPp My homework will be done soon..

Amethyst: think..think...nthink :) thats my HW today :pPp

chika: I know!! lets hope for good :)

canc3rian: Its like the reality show..every time it starts with a new episode :p

maze: enshallah :)

grey: I am coming friday morning I will be there ... will give it another thought bro !!

Navy Girl said...

i think its okay .. maybe your happy with your busy life now that you dont wana get back to the old bored life you used to live .. bs i think its okay ... you should have fun now oo think about work later .. though i believe ena you should do what you love .. if you dont like it your not gonna get good at it .. or you will feel bad inside .. best of luck ..

Speedo said...

navy: thanks I need that luck:)

Ra7aLaH said...

ur not thinking objectively with everything going on in ur life and all the stress...just give ur self sometime to think it over...

zia said...

I had to leave my job too a while back in order to do what I really wanted. I thought about it for so long then I just did it, overnight! It's hard bas I know at the end of the day, it'll be worth it to know that I'm trying!! Best of luck! Ew inshallah you'll make the right decision :)

zia said...

I had to leave my job too a while back in order to do what I really wanted. I thought about it for so long then I just did it, overnight! It's hard bas I know at the end of the day, it'll be worth it to know that I'm trying!! Best of luck! Ew inshallah you'll make the right decision :)

zia said...

LOL last time i posted my comment 3 times, this time twice, maybe next time it'll only be ONCE! SORRY!!!

ammaro.com said...

yes, definately go out there and enjoy LA! its the place i want to be most in the world (well, everythign about it except the traffic)

if you hate your job, QUIT! (but make sure to find another one first :P)

life is too short to work something you hate!