Tuesday, November 6, 2007

A night that I have never experienced before....

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I checked in the hotel room logged on the internet for a while chatted with friends for an hour and then was fast sleep as I had meetings in the morning.

I woke up at 3AM with this strange feeling. I was missing someone out of the blue. A really strange feeling that I felt I should pack my bags head to the airport take the first flight and go and see her. Its like my senses were not in my control. To change a bit I started to sms a few friends in Kuwait thinking someone might reply but I guess it was one of those nights when everyone is sleeping except me. I checked my e-mails on my mobile and didn't realize when I was sleeping again...

I dreamed about her that I was weak and asking her to get back and she's walking away from me. I promised her I will take her away from this hard life like always.. I asked her why did she do this to me after 5 years of loyalty after 5 years of non stop love after 5 years of faith full relation...I don't deserve this!! !! !! I don't need a closure I want you...

I woke up again an hour later. I find my self sleeping on the floor with my mobile in my hand and I was crying in my sleep. I was shocked and scared. I have never seen my self crying in my sleep. I sat on the sofa and gave my self this comfort that everything happens for a good reason and me going to see her wont break a heart made of rock.

I am in the middle of my meeting now and I can't concentrate...the night is like a unforgettable moment for me....

16 comments:

chikapappi said...

*Chika jumping out of the screen & shouting so the boss sees what you are doing* :P


I saw the sms dude this morning only! I wish I could help.. there come times that we all get too emotional about the past, being strong is the solution.. just hold on

Amu said...

chika: lol I will be kicked from Jabel Ali to Salwa on the logistics rocket..

Hey its ok I don't even rem how many ppl I sent the same msg too and it was a very odd time..I am sorry for that :)

Princess said...

:( allah iy3eenik babes, i feel for u walla, it'll pass, i hope for u and me *hug*

SpiKeY said...

your lucku my x button is on the top left :P....anyway man...umm how can I say this...**** happens...so dont let it bother you ...I had this issue before..and maybe till this day I think bout her...but you know...its life...the day will come when the 100% right woman will come....

Amethyst said...

Oh, hun! I don't know how that feels like, but I'm sure it feels horrible. I hope you feel better soon. *hug*

Desert-Roses said...

your blog is nice too...
ur so brave to expose ur private life as that..

strangment..fear of loss..loneliness..3adi t7osh most of ppl..anyways..if I am wrong skip the note .. :P

Amu said...

princess: Allah yesalmch..thanks..

spikey: enshallah :)

amethyst: thanks for the hug

desert-roses: thanks for passing by :) well when u go through so much shit in life I guess u become brave,hehe

Ra7aLaH said...

it hurts alot when you love someone that much...
things will get better inshallah oo u'll find someone better inshalah

This Lady Says said...

Its ok Amu. Crying in ur sleep isn't like crying in real life. Its just a subconscious thing, so don't worry about it.

Time heals all types of pain. U'll get thru it, and u'll meet someone that will make u so much more happier.

Nice post. Really heartfelt.

OutOfReach said...

it hurts , it will take time , and you will be ok :)
its ok that you miss her , and you will never stop thinking ,,,
take care :)
sweet dreams for today ;P

'Grey' said...

Sorry Amu ! but im sending 'burnol' for the quick healing ! ... ..

Take care ! You got better things waiting for you ! ...

Amu said...

ra7alah: enshallah :)

this lady: enshallah time heals this too
Welcome to my blog :)

outofreach: sweet dreams Amu

grey: thanks :)

Navy Girl said...

*clicking on the big RED X * LOL KIDDING !!

i'm impressed that a guy may feel that deep about a girl who just left and made him unhappy .. wala .. bs i hope it works out fine for you oo you find another girl who truly loves you ..

CHILL OUT !

Maze said...

take it easy dude on urself...think of urself ...if u need to talk just call me anytime and i'll be more than happy

pearls said...

hathaa naseebak, just wish her happiness and I'm sure it will come your way one day.

Amu said...

navy: chilled out!! :p

maze: thanks mate :)

pearls: I did wish her that...