Saturday, March 8, 2008

Lying To Forget

This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear her name

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For her are somehow gone

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs

But last night when I passed her house
For the first time since she left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath

When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let her go

20 comments:

Amethyst said...

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G and L said...

awww amu:"( Break our hearts some more will u?!! I know how u feel:( It hurts, but what doesn't kill u makes u stronger..

:::ShoSho::: said...

I am sorry to hear that.. :(

OutOfReach said...

It Hurt :( so sorry

Maya // مايا said...

I pray that you'd finally move on. Some people are worth the wait but she clearly isn't. I'm happy you're actually admitting these feelings to yourself- pushing them under a rug only makes them worse.

God bless you.

Kaileena said...

*hug* confront the feelings and make them go away, hiding them will only result in explosions like last night.

Big Pearls said...

It's really moving..time heals.

Anonymous said...

Give urself a BREAK !!

Enigma said...

no one said it's going to be easy.. You will never forget her, but with time her memory won't be as painful.

Desert-Roses said...

Love is sweet Love is young...


I am in my poetic mood..

but I won't go on ...

***HUGS

Navy Girl said...

OUCH ! :/

Judy Abbott said...

You either force your self to think of something else when she comes to your mind, or you will never get over her..

try to remember the bad days between you, or put excuses to convince you she's not the one, .. think of something that when ever you think about her you wont be able to have any kind of feelings..

Some people might get them selves occupied with many other things to stop thinking about,,, personally i would remember the good days to convince my self we had good times and because i love them they have to be away from me.

doesn't make sense at times.. but saved me lots of tears and sadness

Hamitaf La B said...

Wow... that was deep... :(

intlxpatr said...

When an attachment goes really deep, it takes a while to uproot it. Even years later, you can be suddenly hit by a huge pang of nostalgia. But it does get better, Amu. Although you are still in pain, examine the pain and you will see it is less now than it was mere months ago. The pain is fading. You ARE moving on, but don't expect to be over her too quickly. These things just take time.

kella met2a5er said...

Did you write it..Really nice words =)

Mariposa said...

Hope you feel better soon...

Grey said...

Insha Allah , soon you will be singing,

The day i thought i never get through ,
I got over you....

Amu you rock at poetry man !

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Mirror Polisher said...

I hope you won't get upset with me, but my wish for you is that you NEVER move on. I wish that her memories--both good and bad--stay with you forever.

Amu, seriously consider yourself blessed that you soul is so light that you fell in love so purely. IF it weren't, if your love weren't so pure you would have forgotten her by now.

So treasure it, yes even the pain.

Look at her pics, relive the memories in your mind, and cry/laugh whenever you feel like it. Don't fight any feeling. Let it take over, give i control.

kuwaitya_7saweya said...

how can u start new life
new love
without forget her
her love
her house