3 days like 300 years
After 5 years for the first time for the past 3 days . . .
I didnt hear the word AMU
I didnt charge my phone battery till now
I didnt EAT
I didnt sleep well
I wake up with the slightest ring of my phone thinking its Pagli calling me
I keep waiting for her message but didnt receive any till now
I dont feel like working
I have prayed so much for her safety and happiness
I dunno what am I doing/I am not in my senses
I miss a hug *tears in my eyes*
I am not what I was . . .
Its hard to believe that all this has happened
I don't blame her for anything but I am really worried about her security and safety!
I didnt hear the word AMU
I didnt charge my phone battery till now
I didnt EAT
I didnt sleep well
I wake up with the slightest ring of my phone thinking its Pagli calling me
I keep waiting for her message but didnt receive any till now
I dont feel like working
I have prayed so much for her safety and happiness
I dunno what am I doing/I am not in my senses
I miss a hug *tears in my eyes*
I am not what I was . . .
Its hard to believe that all this has happened
I don't blame her for anything but I am really worried about her security and safety!
Comments
i hate seeing you so broken hearted
its gonna get better inshallah
just hang in there
but things just keep bugging me I sleep and then wake up in the middle of night thinking about her. Thinking does she still loves me the way i do? thinking is she ok? the only thing that really bugs me is her safety... I just pray that I want her to stay safe and happy where ever she is and both sisters stay together. As that was their mothers last wish before she passed away. Ameen
I want to believe fully in faith and let things be and be happy
I’m bothered, the feelings won’t let go
And the thoughts lingers in my head, no, in every cell that forms me
What can I do?
It’s so painful
And I start blaming my self
The only way to avoid it is to be busy, all the time, not a free minute so that the thoughts won’t creep back to me again, and they do
In my dreams, not for a single night I’d be left away, always with me
In my every thought
In my every memory
How can I go on?
But some how I do,
Time passes by
And I laugh though my laugh retreats by the thoughts and it carries a weight of guilt that drags me back
And days pass by, though full but to me they are empty
I keep saying, if it was meant to be,
But it looks like
It’s not
again i dont know why i am saying it..
vixen: I hope to!
I must admit it is a tough time, painful and hard but that doesn;t mean you punish urself like this.
Try to be positive, for the sake of it left to save of this relationship.
I say, wait and see....Time will only proof to u if this is love is meant to last or not.
I have a feeling that she's safe and secure.... but maybe the absense is because she's being watched by her family and she wants time to pass by until things loosen up a bit and then it would be easier for her to breath and contact you to let you know that things are fine.
We're by your side amu.
*hug*.... a warm one.
if you're meant to be together , she will come back to you . but in any case . I hope she's in safe and secure.
I know your pain takes time to heal . but I believe that you're strong enough to move on.